buh.

for the past few months i have had the same routine every night. i watch other people (or my dogs) fall asleep, then i stay awake for hours and hours. i usually chain smoke, watch tv, drive myself crazy on the internet, drink and cry. i don't cry because i am secretly sad about my life or anything, i just start crying out of desperation.

all day i want to sleep. at any point between the hours of 9am and 8pm i could pass out and never wake up again, but once it is actually an acceptable time to shut my eyes i get an aggressive second wind. i hate this. thank god the japanese love making escape the room games, because if i every ran out of new ones my life would end as soon as paid programming started up on lifetime after the 2 hour golden girls block.

if i were a golden girl i would be dorothy; cynical, sarcastic and living with my italian mother.

first post of the new year

i am happy. very happy.